Thanksgiving, Family, Black Friday..OH MY!

We had another great Thanksgiving with family. I made homemade mac n' cheese and homemade banana pudding for the Sawyer's celebration. Matt made dump cake...ever heard of it?

I woke up early Thanksgiving morning to get the mac n' cheese started. It's delicious! Here's the recipe:

Ingredients

* 2 cups uncooked elbow macaroni (an 8-ounce box isn't quite 2 cups)
* 4 tablespoons (1/2 stuck) butter, cut into pieces
* 2 1/2 cups (about 10 ounces) grated sharp Cheddar cheese
* 3 eggs, beaten
* 1/2 cup sour cream
* 1 (10 3/4-ounce) can condensed Cheddar cheese soup
* 1/2 teaspoon salt
* 1 cup whole milk
* 1/2 teaspoon dry mustard
* 1/2 teaspoon black pepper

Directions

Boil the macaroni in a 2 quart saucepan in plenty of water until tender, about 7 minutes. Drain. In a medium saucepan, mix butter and cheese. Stir until the cheese melts. In a slow cooker, combine cheese/butter mixture and add the eggs, sour cream, soup, salt, milk, mustard and pepper and stir well. Then add drained macaroni and stir again. Set the slow cooker on low setting and cook for 3 hours, stirring occasionally.

YUMMMmmmm

We arrived at my parents' house at 12:00. We had a large group there. Sean, Annie, Keegan, Brandon, Candy, Little Candy, Olivia, Jonathan, Nicole, Millie (Nicole's mom), Matt, me, Mama and Daddy. After we ate, we went outside for the traditional family pictures.



Me with all of my brothers




The grand kids



The kids with spouses/girlfriends



The whole crew!




Me and hubby :)



After pictures, we went to Matt's parents. They had a packed house as well and I can't begin to recall everyone that was there.

We came home and started looking at Black Friday Deals. Matt said that we needed a "game plan". We really didn't get the greatest plan, but we had a few ideas of where we wanted to go. We went to bed and a few SHORT hours later, the alarm was going off. We woke up and quickly got dressed. Our first stop was Target. We got to Target at 4:00 to see everyone lined up all the way around Hibbet Sports. After the long line of people made it into the store, we went in. Matt got extremely lucky with what he was wanting to get. He wanted a hard drive. It was on sale for $69.00..He got in line for them and they ran out. A worker said that they had more in the back and went and got them. Matt was the second person in the line so he knew he'd get one. When the worker came back, he handed them to the people in the back of the line first. He had none left when he got to Matt. Luckily, the woman next to Matt realized that that certain hard drive wasn't the kind she wanted, so she handed it over to Matt...victory! I got a few items, and then we moved on to the mall. The mall wasn't nearly as crowded as I had expected. We got some more things there as well. I think we bought more for ourselves than we did other people. I told Matt that I wanted a new camera for Christmas. They had it on sale at Wal-Mart for Black Friday and then we found we where we could order it for the Black Friday Sale Price. Instead of fighting the crowd at Wal-Mart, we just ordered it online :) We went to Macy's and found a toaster/convectional oven (Black and Decker) for $20.00. That would have been a nice gift for someone to get us, but we couldn't pass up on the good deal and name brand. After the mall, we ate at Waffle House. After eating, we stopped at Office Max and then went home. We slept until 3:30!!! Matt woke up in a panic because the Auburn/Alabama game started at 2:30. When we cut the tv on, Alabama was up 21/0. Needless to say, his panties were in a wad! Auburn made a crazy comeback and beat Alabama 27/26. One point. Wow.

This morning it is in the 30's..brrrrr. I made some cinnamon rolls and coffee. I'm determined to get better about blogging (as you can see)..and after blogging I need to do some major cleaning on my house! I'm not sure if we're getting a tree today or not, but I'd really like to get decorating asap :)

My sweet baby Ethel has been with us for almost a year now. She is my furry bundle of joy and I am so thankful that she is my baby. She is the sweetest animal.

Hopefully we can get on the ball soon with our Christmas card picture...stay tuned :)

Thanksgiving BREAK!

Praise Jesus! It's Thanksgiving break!!!

I love my job, don't get me wrong, but hallelujah that the school day is over. I didn't think 3:30 would ever make it!

I really need to get better at this whole "blog" thing.

School has been going very well. Matt has lost between 20-30 pounds with his new job..and me?? yeah, still the same weight...I need to get on the move..big time!

We have a Christmas musical coming up that I'm super stoked about. Matt is the lead character, Phillip. I play his sister, Jenny, and my mom is our dead mother...I'm sure that sounds crazy, but if you want to understand it better, come see the play! Matt, my mom, and I all have a solo and drama parts. I don't think I've ever been THIS nervous about a solo. I'm singing a serious gospel song that is even super gospel for gospel people if you know what I mean. :)

I've really gotten in to reading lately. I read "Charlie St. Cloud" last week and then watched the movie...the book was SO much better. Last night I finished up "The Shack". Best book I've ever read. I laughed, cried, and got angry. Such a wonderful book. You should read it :)

I will be getting braces soon. Not because I love them, but because I love straight teeth. I had braces for over 3 years when I was younger. My bottom teeth are perfectly straight, but the top...not so much. I will be getting them probably in late December or January. Dr. Serff said that I'll only need them on my top teeth and will probably have them for 6 months. On top of all that, he's given me the biggest discount you can imagine ;)

This time last year, Matt and I were honeymooning in Gatlinburg. We had such a wonderful time and I am so blessed that to say that we have had a wonderful, memorable, and crazy first year of marriage. We were supposed to stay in Tennessee until after Thanksgiving. My mom was devastated that she wouldn't have her whole family at the house for Thanksgiving. On a last minute whim, we decided to pack up and come home early. She was so surprised when we walked in the door on Thanksgiving that she cried. It was the best Thanksgiving I've ever had.

I can't wait to begin decorating for Christmas!

school, house, trip, friends, OH MY!

A list of things I need to catch up on in the blog world:
1. School
2. House
3. Trip
4. Matt
5. Chris

OK...
We're in our second month of school. The first day/week was great. I kept comparing this group of students to my kids from last year and thought that there was no way they'd steal my heart like my group last year. I was wrong. My class this year is such a loving group. Most of them LOVE to read AND write. I'm enjoying having my own room to be creative. My students are making wonderful gains and I can't wait to see where they go. Since I'm not teaming this year, the day goes by so quickly. Last year, I taught half the day and the other half I spent helping, grading papers, etc. This year, from 7:50-3:40, I'm on the go, non stop. I'm truly enjoying my job, my students, and parents.

Joey (Matt's Uncle) started painting our house about a month ago. It was a light tan with ugly dark brown shutters and front door. I'll post pictures as soon as it's COMPLETELY finished. We picked out a gray, with dark blue/black shutters and a red front door. It looks SOOOO much better. I'm so excited with our choice! Yesterday Joey came and installed the gutters. We still have to finish the walkway, put up the railing on the front porch, and fix the garden area.

Matt's still on 3rd shift, and will be for who knows how long...The other night we got into the discussion about having a baby. He begged me to stop my birth control. In all honesty, I don't quite understand why he wants a child so badly...I really don't. Isn't it normally the other way around? Personally, I am enjoying Matt and April time. I like coming home to Matt and Ethel and not having to worry about anything else but us. I like being able to go and do as we please and not have to worry about a babysitter. As we were talking, I was trying to make him see my side. We've only been married ALMOST a year, and even though we dated for 8 years prior to getting married, this is a different experience, and I want more of it before we add kids to the mix. We kept talking and a light went off in my head. I told Matt, "You work 3rd shift. We don't know when you'll get off of 3rd shift, if ever. How am I supposed to wake up in the middle of the night with a kid and be expected to go to work? Matt would sleep all day while my mom watched the baby, then I would pick the baby up and go home from work, feed the baby, put the baby to sleep, then Matt would wake up. How fair is that??? Not fair at all. I'm not even ready for that and I'D be the one doing all the work." I'm exhausted just thinking about it all! So-babies aren't even a thought at this point in my life.

October 10 is our 1 year anniversary. This year has FLOWN by. It has been a special and fun year. I made Matt something very special and can't wait to give it to him :) With Matt's new job, he works mostly 7 days a week. Last weekend was Labor Day weekend and he got 2 days off. We took advantage of it and left for Atlanta. We went to the Georgia Aquarium and the World of Coca-Cola. We booked a room at the Westin. We wanted a good view of the city so we asked if we could stay on a high floor. At first, we were on the 49th floor. After a long day at the aquarium and coke place, I was tired and had a little bit of a headache. We ate lunch at the Varsity and then checked into our hotel. We had a beautiful view and could even see Stone Mountain. I decided that a little nap would probably help my headache. All of a sudden we hear a dog barking. I thought, "No...you've GOT to be kidding me." We ended up going to the 70th floor where they have a restaurant called the Sun Dial. We weren't going to eat there because it was SO expensive. We went up there simply for the view. We got up there and soon decided that we didn't care how much it would cost, we wanted to eat there. The neat thing about this restaurant is that it slowly rotates. It takes an hour to make a complete rotation. It's the best view in Atlanta. We made reservations for 7:30, went back to our room and started getting dressed up. We went back up to the restaurant at 7:30 and was seated by the window. The waiter came with a fancy bottle of water and asked, "Would you like this 'still water' or would you like for me to go get you 'sparkling water'?" Matt, which much confidence says, "We want the sparkling water." The waiter leaves to get the sparkling water, brings it back and pours it in our glasses. It was the most AWFUL water I've EVER tasted. It was carbonated. I had to laugh, because Matt thought he was making the right choice and was so confident about it. We ordered this ravioli dish for an appetizer. It was delicious. I got a glass of riesling and Matt got a lemon drop drink. Matt ordered their chicken dish, which was $30.00. I ordered steak, which was $50.00. I got a little nervous because I knew that our bill was going to be outrageous. Matt just smiled and calmly said, "You only live once. We can afford it, don't worry about it, just enjoy and get whatever you want." Dinner was DELICIOUS; not only that, we got to watch the sun set over Atlanta. It was the most amazing view I've ever had. The sun set and soon we had the beautiful view of the city lights and car lights. We ordered dessert. He ordered some kind of brownie and I ordered creme brulee. OH, MY, SWEET TOOTH-it was so amazing. Our bill, with tip and all came out to be $180.00. I don't regret a single dollar. It was amazing food and an amazing experience. After dinner we came back to our room. There was a hotel worker who was telling us that they had complaints about the dog next door and that they were going to take care of it. The owner had been gone ALL day. You know that dog HAD to have messed all in that room. The worker said they had locked the door so that the owner would not be able to get in and would have to face them. We asked if we would be able to get another room and the worker said that shouldn't be a problem. We went in our room and as soon as we heard the dog bark, we called the front desk and got moved to the 60th floor which had an even BETTER view! It was wonderful. The next morning, we left and headed home. We stopped in Newnan for lunch and ate at Five Guys Burger and Fries...yummy! We also went to my favorite teacher store and I got some needed items. Our last stops were at Zaxby's so that Matt could get his favorite, birthday cake milkshake. We then went to Starbucks so that I could get MY favorite, vanilla bean frappucino.

We had a wonderful time and I'm so glad we did it.

Our friend Chris had his final surgery. If you've been reading, you'll know that he had chron's disease and ulcerative colitis, which doctors believe is from the medicine acutane. Anyways, he had his colon removed. For a while, his waste was going into a bag from his stomach. On this last surgery, the doctors closed him up and he is now producing waste like the rest of us. Bless his heart, he has been through so much. I pray that he and Jamie will get back on their feet again and experience more blessings than they can possibly imagine.

That's all for now!

3rd shift/hair disaster

3rd shift SUCKS. This week has been a pretty good week, considering I'm back to school!! Waking up has been an adjustment, but it always is. Tomorrow is our "sneak-a-peak", and I'm not ready. I still have a LOT to do. I've been working in my classroom ALL summer and I get down to the wire and STILL HAVE THINGS TO DO...SO frustrating! I wanted to stay late today, but I knew that if I did, I would miss out on time with Matt. I got home and had dinner with him. We sat on the couch and watched the latest episode of "Teen Mom"...gosh, I love that show! ;) Before we know it, he has to get ready and leave for work. Tonight I kept holding on to him and hugging him. I told him bye and went back in the living room. When I knew he was about to walk out, I ran to get one more hug and kiss. As soon as I heard his truck drive off, I lost it. He's been at his new job for a month now. I thought it would be a little easier by now, but if anything, I feel worse. I sat there crying and thought to myself, how in the world did I make it through him working 2nd shift? About 3 months into our marriage he got on to 2nd shift at his old job. He went in to work at the time I was getting off and he did not get home until 1 or 2 in the morning. We literally did not speak to each other or see each other. It was awful. I'm trying my best to be thankful that I get to talk to him and see him, but I'm selfish and want more! Again, it's one of those hormonal nights for me!

Ok...previous post I told you that I'd share my hair story...well, here goes!
I normally color my hair. In the winter I color it a little darker (dark auburn), and in the summer I put highlights in it. I've never had a problem coloring my own hair. The only downside is that it doesn't last as long as professional salon coloring, and it takes me FOREVER. I have a friend who got into hair. I talked to her (on a Thursday)and she said she could color it on Monday. Friday rolls around and I'm just too impatient. I go to the store and decide to try a new hair color...B-I-G MISTAKE. My hair looked like black cherry. It was awful. Not only that, the color came with a highlighting kit. It highlighted my hair to this awful orange color. I decided to put brown over it to cover it up. It helped, but my hair still looked like black cherry. The next day I decided to get hair color remover...2nd B-I-G MISTAKE...the hair color remover not only stripped the box hair color out, it also took MY hair color out leaving it to a light orange color...Can you even imagine?! I then put medium brown on it because the hair color remover box suggested you immediately color it after removing the color. Well...light orange plus medium brown equals BRIGHT RED...I wish I was kidding. I had to wear a hat for 2 days straight. I missed morning church because I was so embarrassed. Monday FINALLY rolled around and I went in at 10 to see my friend. I'm thankful to report that she did a GREAT job. My hair is now medium brown with golden highlights just a shade or two lighter. I'm loving it.

Well...off to another lonely night! :(

Hi Ho, Hi Ho...back to school I go!

Well...today was my first day of my 2nd year of teaching! :) It's great to have that first year packed under my belt. I can only imagine what my parents thought when they heard that it was my first year. I wonder if they were as nervous as I was!!!

Matt and I had dinner with our friends, Ashley and Eric Stokes. I got home around 10 and decided that I would wake up early and get on the treadmill. Normally I would stay in bed until the last minute, but as soon as my alarm went off this morning, I was up and getting ready. I walked/jogged(SOME!) on the treadmill for 20 minutes, then got in the shower and took my time getting ready. It was really nice and it helped me wake up and get my thoughts all together. I really hope that I can keep this up! Our first day back wasn't so bad. We attended some professional development meetings and worked in our classrooms. I took my lunch so that I could be more healthy AND save money. A little after lunch, I got a bad headache. I was miserable and could hardly do any work in the classroom. I ended up going to K-Mart, getting a diet coke, a snicker bar (I know that defeats the whole DIET thing...but I needed it, ok?!)and Excedrin. I then met up with Ashley to get a much needed pedicure. About halfway into the pedicure, I began to feel MUCH better.

I should be asleep, but felt I should blog...This is Matt's 3rd week on 3rd shift. It hasn't really gotten easier on me. I'm thankful that I get to see him, but I sure do miss sleeping with him at night. He was my personal heat pillow! ;)

My facebook status is "Keep in mind the person that came up with the old adage, 'sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me' was obviously deaf....Sticks and stones may break our bones, but words will break our hearts." I'm feeling a little down tonight...I shouldn't let words get to me. Life is too short and there are so many special people in my life I could focus on...There's just a certain someone that I can't seem to let out of my grips. Words may mean something to you, but to me, it's a sting in my heart. Anyway...maybe I shouldn't write sad things...but I guess that's why it's my blog...it helps...sort of..

I began leading small group for our junior high girls. I'm so nervous, but excited. I really felt like the Lord was tugging me towards that direction. I hope that I can minister and touch their lives in some way. In a way I feel inadequate to lead in such a way, but then again, no one is perfect. Not you, not me, not your mama, not even your preacher. It's a daily thing. As I grow closer to the Lord and truly realize his holiness, the more aware of my sin I become; therefore, more prepared to face the truth and stop the sin. I don't know...my mumbo jumbo!

I should go to bed.

Next time I post, I will tell you about my hair catastrophe!

How Great the Father's Love for us

This morning, Tyler and I sang "How Great the Father's Love for us"...During our run-through, it went like it was supposed to. Come the real thing, I messed up.. AHHHH! I have literally listened to this a hundred times. Each time I could just kick myself for messing up. Here's what happened...when we first got the song, it was hard to hear the intro to my part. I finally got it, but was still insecure about it. During the actual performance, I freaked out because I couldn't hear the music that well and thought I came in too early for my verse. Turns out, I came in at the right time. I stopped and then had to rush the words "my sin upon his shoulders". When it comes to singing, I am a perfectionist. I will sing a song over and over and over, day after day after day. So...you can imagine how upset I was with myself. Oh well...It could have been worse, right?

I've never really thought about recording myself singing...I had someone record my mom, Matt, and myself when we sang a trio simply because I knew it would probably never happen again! Matt used to sing ALL the time in high school. We sang duets at any opportunity and we were often asked to sing at city-wide events. He claims that he is nervous and can't sing as good as he used to. Also, he says that when he was in musical theater, he couldn't see the audience because of the bright lights. I told him that we could always put a blindfold over his eyes! I will try to post the trio sometime in the near future. OH...back to videoing..I'm going to try and record myself whenever I sing, and I'm going to do this for 2 reasons. 1., It will be a great thing to show my kids, grand kids, etc. 2., It's great for critiquing! ;)

Tyler, if you are reading this, thank you for singing with me!

How Rude!

Feeling frustrated tonight...maybe it's my hormones.

Matt and I took a nap today. It was entirely too long and I probably won't get to sleep at a decent time tonight. His parents are leaving in the morning to go to Kissimee, FL for a family reunion so we wanted to see them before they left. We were going to go out for dinner, but since we woke up so late, we had dinner at McDonald's. I can't begin to tell you the last time I've eaten at a fast food place besides Chick-fil-a! ;)

Anyways, Matt is a fast eater. I'm not horribly slow, but I don't shove the food in my mouth quite the way he does. We're sitting there and he has finished eating. I can kind of tell that he looks irritated. I finished my meal (didn't even eat all of my nuggets) and took one bite out of my apple pie and he says, "You ready to go?" Are you serious? Really? I'm not even finished and he's ready to push me out of the seat. I was not happy. I got up and left. Matt is normally a gentleman, but tonight, he really pushed my buttons. Would it have really hurt him to sit there for 2 more minutes? To me, that's saying, I don't care about you. I don't value you or the time we spend together. I felt like I wasn't important to him. We get to his parents and he sits on the couch playing around on his phone for a few minutes. During that time, I was thinking to myself "this is what we rushed out for". This is what was so important to him. We left and he headed to work. I headed home in tears. It sounds so silly to you, I'm sure, but how hard is it to spend an extra few minutes with YOUR WIFE? He called me because he knew I was upset about something. He didn't think anything was wrong with it... go figure.

So tonight I sit here feeling sad, lonely, unimportant to my husband, and hormonal...UGH. And no, I'm not pregnant.

School starts in 9 days. I'm ready, but not ready. I've enjoyed my summer, but in a way, I'm ready to jump back into a routine. I've been working very hard in my classroom all summer. I will put pictures up next week!

Matt hurt himself this past week. He came home, got in the bed, and started crying out in pain. I was really worried about him. The pain was on his back but wrapped around to under his ribcage. He doesn't have insurance right now since he just got a job. I'm the type of person who researches everything and then think the worst. It's probably not healthy ;) I begged him to let me take him to the doctor and he repeatedly refused. It's Saturday and he gets better and better, day by day.

Yesterday, Mama and I went to the MART! For years we have wished we could go. Mama goes once a year for a dental conference and stocks up on things. At a training last week, I learned that they have something called "Corporate Friday". Anyone with a job can attend Corporate Friday. After we heard the news, we planned a trip! We left Phenix City around 9:30 and did not get home until 7:00. We literally shopped till they were closing! I had so much fun and bought a lot of birthday and Christmas gifts for others. I also bought a few things that I wanted. I don't really shop for "me" anymore. Of course, that's a good thing and I have everything I need. It felt nice to see something I liked and buy it. Not to mention, it was very cheap!

We got home to grumpy people. We refused to let them steal our happiness!!

I left my parents house and went to the church to practice a song. I am singing this Sunday. On Thursday, an idea popped into my head. For a while I have wanted to sing certain Selah songs, but needed a good guy singer...Well, I think I might have found him! He's in the youth. I messaged him on facebook and asked if he would be interested in singing a duet with me in church. (I figured it'd be at a later date). He was excited and asked when I wanted him to sing with me. I decided to go out on a limb and say this Sunday (which was only 3 days away). He responded and said, "Sure! What are we singing?" The next day we went to Lifeway and picked out a song. He does a great job. I'm pretty sure that the little old ladies are going to faint when they hear him ;).

weight loss

I've had it with my weight. I'm so tired of being so self-conscious...in front of my husband of ALL people. I can't do this to myself anymore.

I am singing Sunday. As many of you know, I am in-love with Selah's music. I sing just about any and every song they have recorded when given the chance. As I was listening to one of their songs, I went to their webpage to look up the lyrics. That then sent me to Amy's blog. Wow. Someone who has been going through the same thing as me. Someone who puts on a WONDERFUL front, but secretly (well, not anymore since she blogged about it) is broken. Read some of what she wrote.

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I can finally see it!
July 20, 2010

Every day I look in the mirror I think, “Why can ‘t I see it yet?” My clothes are hanging, but I look at my face and don’t see the change. Everyone says it’s because I’m looking at myself everyday, so I thought I’d pull out some pictures to see if I could see a change. And I can finally see it!

I couldn’t stop smiling last night! Now, I know I’m still far from my goal, but it was nice to look at some pictures and see the difference.

This is me 2 months into my HCG diet

This is me last year for the You Deliver Me shoot

Anyways, I thought I’d post them for you.

Also, just for an update on what’s going on with the diet… I hit kind of a plateau over the last 2 weeks and it took forever just to lose like 3 pounds, so Cyndi put me on the Reset for 2 weeks to give my body a break. Basically, for the next 2 weeks I don’t take the HCG and I can eat more of what I was already eating, including, now, some dairy and other fats.

To be honest, I was so nervous packing my lunch yesterday. I’ve gotten very comfortable with knowing exactly what and how much I can eat, the thought of thinking for myself and making a good choice kind of scared me. I still can’t have carbs or sugar, but that leaves a lot of food available to eat and I just want to be sure I’m making good choices. I figure these next 2 weeks are good practice for how difficult or easy it will be to maintain once I’m at my goal weight. I am enjoying cheese again! Woot!

The last thing I want to mention today is Allan Hall. As you know from previous blogs, he has been working so hard losing weight and he has two milestones approaching. As of yesterday, he is 2 pounds from 50!! He’s really hoping to reach that goal this weekend, and I’m praying he will. He is also 7 pounds away from reaching his halfway point for total pounds needed to be lost. At the rate he’s going, he could potentially reach both milestone goals within the next week, so please be praying for him. I’m so incredibly proud of how hard he’s worked.

It’s rare to meet a man who struggles with weight issues the way Allan has, and he’s agreed, once he reaches his milestones, to guest blog on here and I really can’t wait to read what he has to say. I think his journey can help so many. You know, some times we women think we’re the only ones who go through this, and that no man could ever understand our issues. But Allan understands; he’s been there too. So let’s pray for his success and wait in anticipation of the great blog he’s going to write very soon!!!!

amy


Hey all,

This week was VBS at our church and I have to be honest, I’m wiped! I’ve worked every day and gone straight to church after. I’m crashing around 9:30 each night and still am tired in the morning.

Something interesting happened this week. I was working in the storage unit for my job in 87 degree weather, and it was not going well. Several things hindered me from completing my job, which means I have to go on Monday and spend more time in dusty, bug infested storage; I was not happy. So, I picked Jake up around 1pm because he was going home from work early and we only have one car. By the time I picked him up I was pretty irritated, tired and starving; this is usually a bad combination for Amy.

When I got back to work I went into the kitchen to get my grilled chicken and lettuce and what did I see in an open box on the counter? Yeah, you guessed it; donuts. Beautiful, glazed, sugary donuts. Now, the “previous” Amy would have dug right in. It was the perfect storm of hungry, tired, and stressed, and I would have absolutely convinced myself that I deserved the donut, or 3…

As I stood there looking at the donuts I realized something; I didn’t want one.

For the first time I was in a typical stress eating situation, with the comfort food laid out before me, and I didn’t want to eat. HUGE moment for me. Of course, I still barked out, “Who leaves open donuts on the counter willy nilly? Are you trying to kill me?!” But I do that any time there’s food out because literally every day someone in my office leaves something horrible (and when I say horrible, I mean yummy, delicious and fattening) on the kitchen counter, open for all the world to partake.

You know what’s funny? I didn’t even recognize that huge moment when it happened. I just looked at the donuts and thought, “Eh, no thanks,” and moved on. I didn’t realize it until the next day when my scale betrayed me, and I was feeling so discouraged that all the hard work I’ve been putting in wasn’t showing up on my scale the way I’d hoped. I was so bummed all the way to work. Jake kept trying to encourage me, but I just wanted to scream at him that he couldn’t possibly understand what it’s like to work and work and then the scale says you’ve gained. I felt like giving up. I felt like if I had known I was going to gain, or not lose, I might as well have had the stupid donut.

I felt like a failure.

As I got to work alone, crying, the Holy Spirit showed me something. He showed me the donut. And He reminded me that even right then, I didn’t really want a donut. Even when I felt like a failure, or when I was frustrated, stressed out and exhausted, I didn’t want to make myself feel better with food. And the fact that I sat there talking to Him instead of driving straight to the pastry shop meant something.

This journey has not been easy but it’s been worth it. I was telling Jake about my little breakthrough and how it’s so hard when I look at the scale and it’s moving so slowly. But if I look at the big picture, I’ve lost 42 pounds! So what if I’ve had a few slow days? I’ve lost 42 pounds! I told Jake that sometimes it’s so much easier for me to see what’s not happening on the scale, then to recognize what is and he said something really cool. He said that that’s how a lot of us treat God. We’re so busy looking at what He’s not doing for us; dwelling on what He’s not given us, that we fail to recognize all that He’s done in our lives. PREACH Youth Pastor Jake! Man, that puts things in perspective really quick.

Thank you God for all You’ve done in my life! Thank You for this journey that is not only transforming me, but is helping others in their journey. Thank you for Cyndi and her amazing guidance! Thank you for Jake and his loving rebukes and unending encouragement! Thank you God for 42 pounds and counting!!

And thank You for donuts, because when the time is right, I just might have one, and that will be okay.

Amy


It's 1:31 A.M. I am PROCLAIMING that this is the start of my weight loss. I will post pictures of before once I've lost some weight ;)

I'm going to work on eating smaller portions and walking more...and healthier choices....more to come!

Donation Jar Frauds are serious!

There are some crazy people in this world! Too bad, I got caught up with one of them. This woman (girlfriend of a family member of Matt's) put jars out for her son. There was a picture of him from a time when he was in the hospital for something minor. She had the picture printed and put on a jar to collect money...HE'S FINE!!!! What a scam artist! Long story short, people like that get on my nerves! It's sad...Because of people like that, I will never donate to jars in fear that it's the parent who wants the money. So sad. Anyway, I deleted her as a friend on facebook. She went crazy. I honestly couldn't read any more of her "woe is me" stuff. I hate drama like that. I did my best to stay away from that crap in highschool and a 30/40 year old woman is acting as if she were in highschool...Seriously? Grow up.

Anyway, speaking of scamming and fraud, I found a few articles where others have done it....go figure!

Donation jar for 'sick girl' a fraud, police say
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May 27, 2010 8:37 AM
Kevin Ellis

Gastonia Police are investigating a purported scam that involves a person putting out a donation jar for a girl supposedly sick.

"As it turns out the girl was not sick and nobody in the girl's family authorized the collection," Officer B. W. McConnell wrote in an incident report released Thursday.

The jar was being put out at a East Franklin Boulevard business, according to the report.

The report did not indicate whether an arrest was made in the case.

The jar was at DTS Bar and Billiards at 611 E. Franklin Blvd.
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Businesses React to Donation Jar Scam
Mid Michigan Businesses React to Donation Jar Scam
Posted: 11:30 PM Dec 17, 2009
Reporter: Jamie Edmonds
Email Address: jamie.edmonds@wilx.com

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When a man walked into the Frandor Deli about a year ago and asked to leave a donation jar behind, Jamie Rodgers said he didn't think twice about it.

"He just dropped it off and said it was for missing children," Rodgers, the nigh manager at the Frandor Deli, said.

The owner of Evergreen Cycle and Repair has a similar story.

"A guy came in and asked do you mind if I put a canister up to help these lost kids and it had a picture on it," Hunter Seyfarth said.

The "Beacon Project" was supposed to help reunite families with missing children -- the owner of Tony M's said it struck a chord with a lot of people.

"People were donating to it on a regular basis," John Migaldi said. "It was only a quarter or you could give more money."

Nearly 90 businesses from Lansing to Williamston displayed the donation box. Police say all of them, including the hundreds of people who donated, were duped by 54-year-old Joseph Carr of Williamston because instead of helping children, they say he was pocketing the money for himself.

"I'm kind of in shock about it," Rodgers said "I don't understand how someone could stoop that low."

Newsten went to Carr's house Thursday for comment, but no one answered the door.

Needless to say, business owners across Mid Michigan are in shock.

"It's not right to take advantage of someone's generosity then turn around an pocket the money." Seyfarth said. "That's heartless."

And many are feeling more skeptical than ever to open up their hearts and their pocket books.

"It's very offensive to everyone especially to the good organizations because now you become more skeptical when people come to ask for help," Migaldi said. "You're going to question it now."

The Attorney General's Office said from February through June of this year, Carr collected between $1,500 and $2,000 dollars a month.
He was arraigned Thursday on three charges -- and faces a five year prison sentence if convicted.



It's a serious thing people, be careful! There are some serious scam artists in this world; including one in our very own city!

Hello...It's been a while..

Ethel had her surgery last week and she did great...until about 3 days later. When Matt brought her home, it was awful. She was drugged up and absolutely pitiful! We felt horrible, but by the next morning, she was more like herself. We did our best to keep her calm. Day 3 after surgery, I came into the kitchen that morning to find puke EVERYWHERE. It was awful. She puked almost every 30 minutes for a few hours. I didn't know what to do. We took her to the vet for them to tell us that they couldn't find anything wrong with her. The vet suggested that I boil some chicken and rice for her and gave us some nausea medicine to give her. The assistant comes in a few minutes later to check us out and she said, "That'll be $81.88".....?? I almost fainted. Are you kidding me?! $88.00 for someone to tell me that nothing is wrong with her and give her FOUR pills??....After we left the vet, she acted as if nothing were ever wrong. From then on, Matt called her "faker". "Come on, Faker, and go potty". haha... Here I am, in the kitchen, cooking a meal for a DOG! I put it in a bowl for her, and does she even sniff it??? Nope...time completely wasted!

Last Wednesday, Matt had a job interview. We left the house over an hour early to get there early...Boy, were we early! He asked me to go with him. If you ask me, I think I'm his lucky charm :) The last interview he went to, I accompanied him on the way there and sat in the car until he was finished..He was offered the job, but then declined it due to a raise at Golden's. Anyways...he went in at 4. An hour passes and I have to pee so bad that my kidneys are hurting. Another hour passes and he calls me and tells me to get some food because it'll be a while. I go and get gas, a candy bar, and pee. I came back and he was standing outside....I say all of this to announce that he got the job! He walked in at 4 and came out at 7. Now he's waiting on a call from HR to set up his drug test, paperwork, etc.

The guys have gotten back on the walkway. I will post pictures of the progress soon.

I've been working in my classroom and have gotten a lot done :)

Matt and I have made some new, married, friends :) The Stokes...I work with Ashley, and we continue to get closer and closer. We went to highschool together, but she was a year older. We've been supporting each other since the beginning of school and I'm so glad to have her as a friend. After I met her husband, Eric, I knew that he and Matt would get along well. After saying we needed to plan something, we finally went through with it. We went to Applebee's a few weeks ago and then went over to their house. Last week they came over to our house and we grilled out, played rock band, and watched a movie (which was extremely scary!). Yesterday we met up with them at the movies and watched Eclipse...Speaking of Eclipse, I went to the midnight premier. I haven't had that much fun in a while! We got there early and didn't have to wait long. It was awesome.

Matt went on a cleaning frenzy a few days ago and our house is cleaner than it was when we moved in. Now I'm bored because I don't have anything to do around here :)

We used to have a rule when we first got married..."You cook, I clean". It didn't really stick, because no matter who cooked, I normally ended up cleaning. Tonight I cooked, and while we were sitting at the table, he leans over and farts. UHHH. I was so mad! It literally made me lose my appetite. As I was throwing my food in the trash can I said, " I cooked, you can clean."...and walked into the office..I can hear him now, cleaning the plates and unloading the dishwasher..ha! Serves him right!!

Well, I'm off. Until next time...

Today...I feel sad.

Survey Says...

Can you Drive a manual? No...I wish! Matt has a 70 Chevy that is a manual. He tried to teach me once. I stalled it too many times to count. I got frustrated and quit.
Something that keeps you going everyday? The Lord, my husband, family, job, and Ethel May.
Do you own a gun? No...but sometimes I wish I did. I am very paranoid. But then again, Matt is a sleepwalker/talker, I would be afraid that he would have one of his night frenzies and shoot me or something!
Do you like who you are? For the most part
Do you have A.D.D.? Most definitely. I haven't been diagnosed, but I'm sure that if I went to a doctor, I would come out positive for A.D.D!
Country you've been in? U.S...which makes me laugh...My students had a hard time learning the differences between states, countries, cities, etc. Sometimes when I would ask them what country we lived in, some would shout "ALABAMA!" haha
Aren’t thunderstorms awesome? If I'm inside with my hubby, yes
Who is your cell carrier? Verizon
Would you rather be rich or famous? Rich
Do you like the cold? not really
Are you happy you are alive? yep
Do you like looking up at the stars? You know, I don't really do that much...but it sounds like a great idea :) Maybe I'll have a romantic evening with Matt and go outside with blankets to look at the stars...hmmm
Would you ever cheat on anyone? never.
Do you want to move? Eventually, but right now I'm very happy with our little house :) It's perfect for us.
Do you burn or tan? Burn
Are your parents still married? Thank Jesus, yes!
Are you happier single or in a relationship? Much happier in a relationship
Do you have any children? Not yet and hopefully not for another 2.5 years
What other languages do you speak? none :(
Do you daydream a lot? Oh yes...too much
Do you like swimming? sometimes
What is the make and model of your phone? LG Voyager
Do you like the ocean? I like looking at it...not so much swimming in it
What are your thoughts on stay at home moms? If you can do it, do it!
What are your thoughts on abortion? No, No, No!
Who did you last get angry with? Ethel May. She pooped in her little pen.
Do you still live with your parents? nope, I've been living with Matt in our new home since October, 2009
Coke or Pepsi? Coke....DIET coke to be exact
How many credit cards do you own? none...I need one (you know...to build credit!) ;)
Liberal or Conservative? conservative
Would you ever go skydiving? oh yeah!
Have you lost any one close to you? too many
How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning? None...I'm on SUMMER BREAK!!! If it were during the school year, probably about 3-5 times...i am NOT a morning person
Do you think you are smart? yes, for the most part
Talk to any of your ex's no
How old were you when you got your first kiss? 14
Do you do your own laundry? yes, and my husbands
Do you want to get married? I'm happily married
Do you want kids? One day...just not now, or anytime soon
Are you shy? Depend on the circumstance. I try not to be, or I try to act as if I'm not shy.
How many times have you moved? 2
Do you hear voices? No...should I?
Who is the last person to call you? My hubby
How many e-mails do you have? 32...I need to delete them...
What is in your nightstand drawer? lotion, book, back massage oil, and other things....
Are you religious? It's not about religion, it's about relationship. I love the Lord with all of my heart.
Favorite color? pink

2 weeks notice

Well...Matt turned in his 2 weeks notice yesterday at Golden's Foundry.

Questions that I ask myself:
1. What are we going to do? I have no clue...walk by faith.
2. Am I scared? no, I'm terrified...freaking out!
3. Will we be ok? Somehow, yes.
4. What's most important? Happiness..not money.

Over the last 6 months, Matt has come home miserable. He works with people who have a lot of mean in their bones. I'm worried because he doesn't have a job to back himself up, but I also feel at peace. I never wanted Matt to get "stuck" at that foundry like many of those people (and some of his family) have. He's too smart and does not deserve to have to work with people who disrespect him. Some events happened and one of his supervisors went behind his back; a supervisor that he trusted, looked up to, and confided in. He was already not happy, but when your closest friend throws you under the bus, you need to get out of that situation. The devil is alive in that place and I'm thankful that Matt has the sense to get away and move on. If you read my blogs, please take a moment to lift Matt up in your prayers.

Our friend Chris had his "j pouch" surgery yesterday. Jamie called me and let me know that it went great. What a relief! I hope to drive up there next week after VBS.

Today I think I'll go up to the school and work in my classroom for a bit.

God is good.

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Sickness and surgeries

I have an awful sore throat and ear ache. Weird, but it's always on the right side. My right tonsil is double the size of the left one. No fever, no runny nose, etc...weird

Our friend Chris is having surgery this week. He had his colon removed a few months ago and will now be having surgery to get a "J Pouch"..he will have another surgery after the upcoming surgery so that eventually, he won't have to rely on the bag to catch his waste. My heart aches for him and Jamie. They are wonderful people and deserve all of life's blessings. Since Matt and I got married, we have spent a lot more time with them. Jamie has become the closest friend that I have, and the most true friend that I have (besides my husband and mom). Hopefully I can go up there to the hospital and keep Jamie company (and of course, see Chris) :)

Matt's mom had a partial hysterectomy Tuesday and seems to be healing well. Matt's Maw Maw came down from Wyoming to help take care of her, the house, chores, and Paige. It has been great to see her and spend time with her. We went to church with her last Sunday. It was a Pentecostal church...and wow, what an experience! I left feeling exhausted. It was interesting to experience their worship, but I think I'll stick to my Baptist roots ;)

OH...if you've been reading previous blogs, you'll understand when I say, Thank Jesus, I'm not pregnant!

Ethel is getting her woman parts taken out on June 29th....I'm nervous and praying that all will go well during and after the surgery. She hasn't left my side this weekend. It's as if she knows I'm sick and wants to help take care of me. Yesterday I slept on the couch most of the day. She did not get up unless I did. She slept right there with me. It's times like yesterday that make me realize how grateful I am for her and how glad I am that we got her. I always said I didn't want a dog. For some reason, I got puppy fever shortly after marriage...I looked online every where for the perfect breed. I researched breeds and what would be right for me (since I'm the main care-taker). I decided upon a shih tzu. I couldn't afford the price that people tag on shih tzus, but thankfully came upon Ethel's owners. They were so sweet. She is my baby and I never thought I could love an animal as much as I love her.

The carpets at the school have been cleaned, so if I'm feeling decent enough, I may go up there and work a bit...? We'll see.

We've thought long and hard over it, and we are going to paint our house this summer! I'm thinking gray siding, dark grayish shutters, and a red front door...what do you think?? ;)

Ahh, Saturday I went to my niece's (Candy) dance recital. Can you say torture??? My heavens, it was awful! She did a great job, considering that she is only 4. Most of the dancers did not know their routines, so they had to follow the instructors. Moms and dancers were walking on stage during performances. At some point, this man kept screaming out things like, "YOU GO GIRL! YOU GOT THIS! SHOW EM WHAT'CHA GOT!" Mama leaned over and said, "Nothing like a redneck dance recital"...hahaha! We were so relieved when it was over!

I've been up since 3:00 AM, and it's times like this that really make me miss living with my mama. I woke up in a lot of pain; trying to get Matt to get up and get me some medicine. When I lived at home and was sick, all I had to do was say her name. I swear she had super hearing powers with her children because she would jump out of the bed and come to us. She somehow made it possible to give us enough relief to get us back to sleep. I had to get up on my own and get some medicine. I fixed my drink and went to the medicine cabinet.....not there...I go in the bedroom and just turn the light on. Matt wakes up and realizes that I am not okay and asks if I need him...uhh, yeah...like 20 minutes ago when I was in agony in the bed...nevermind now! Guess where the medicine was?...On HIS night stand...Sheesh! I took the medicine and came in the computer room. Sitting up helps with my ear ache for some odd reason. Anyway, I hate going to doctors; especially for cases like this because I'll sit in the office, miserable, for a long time just to get a prescription. Then I have to go fill the prescription and come back home. I'd rather just be miserable at home and try to wait it out...after all, it's just a sore throat, right? I'm hoping to feel well SOON...I'm just glad that it's summer and I'm not missing days from work.

If you're reading this, please take a moment to pray for my sweet friends, Jamie and Chris, and for Chris' upcoming surgery...

Love to you all......

Weight Watchers and Maggie

Happy Monday! I woke up early this morning, well, early for summer ;) (8:30) to take Ethel to the groomers. Ever since she was a puppy, we have been taking her to Southern Paws. They do a really good job, and every time I come to pick her up, they're loving on her. Speaking of Ethel May, she has a cousin! Her name is Maggie and she's an english bulldog.
Meet Maggie!






Yesterday I weighed myself...I knew it wouldn't be good...and I was correct, it wasn't good. In fact, I am at my heaviest weight. How depressing. Yes, I got a treadmill, and I do get on it, but I need to get on it EVERY DAY, not just every other or every 2 days. The only times I've truly lost weight and kept it off for a remarkable amount of time was when I have gone to weight watchers. I'm so frustrated with myself because I have been so much smaller, but always let myself go. I like the meetings, but when school starts, I know I'll be exhausted and skip here and there. I signed up for online weight watchers. I'm going to take each day at a time. Matt wasn't so thrilled when I told him I was going to join online. Probably because he thinks it will be a waste of money and I won't stick to it. So, I really need to stick to it! Maybe blogging will help with my daily ease and struggles of eating. It's so quiet here at the house without Ethel. She was in major need of a hair cut. Take a look at a picture of her from yesterday...

As soon as they call, I will pick her up and post a new picture of her on here :)
At the end of this month (or maybe next month) Matt and I will be on the same account for cell phones. I am keeping Verizon and Matt is switching from Sprint to Verizon. I'm very excited. This will be the first time that I will have internet on my phone!! We are getting the incredible...I don't know much about it, but whatever it is, it has internet! :)


Before and after!

Funeral and joy

Today we said our last goodbyes to Stephanie Parmer. Brother Robb called me a few days ago and asked me to sing "I can only imagine" at the funeral. Then the next day he texted me and asked if I would sing another song. I called him and he asked that I sing "Legacy". In my head, I'm thinking, oh Lord...can I really do this? And suddenly I felt a peace about it. I knew that the Lord would lead me through it. I also felt glad that I could contribute something to her friends, family, and loved ones. I wish I could do more, say something, gosh...bring her back. Before I went to church I prayed that God would use me as his instrument. I knew I wouldn't be able to sing two songs on my own with a crowd full of grieving loved ones. I don't know how He did it, but He was with me the whole time. Brother Robb did a fantastic job. I don't know how he does it, I really don't. He has such a way with words and it was perfect. Also, our former youth pastor came down. It warmed my heart to see him there. I praise God for giving me the opportunity to sing at Stephanie's funeral. She left such a remarkable legacy and was only 16 years old. I have been a believer longer than she has, but I truly believe that she left more of a legacy than I could begin to leave. I pray that the Lord shape me into a light the way she was. I pray that I can touch people's lives with a smile, kind word, hug, or word from the bible. I am blessed to have another day to improve who I am and to be more of who HE wants me to be.

Now on to my joy of the day...
A sweet friend of mine (who actually played piano at Stephanie's funeral) got hired at Lakewood today!!!! I am so excited for her. Cheryl Tally will be a wonderful addition to our Lakewood family!

God is so good.

Received more awful news yesterday. Another sweet soul has been taken from this earth by an automobile accident. Stephanie Parmer, absolutely beautiful inside and out. I was told that she sent a bible verse to her friends every morning...wow, what a testimony. She was a part of our youth at church and cheered at Central. Gosh...you just don't know. Between her and Whitney, this has been a weird time for me. Life is fleeting. We never know when our time here is done. I think to myself, why am I so self-centered? Why am I always focusing on me, me, me? These deaths have really done something to my soul. If I died, what would people say about me? What kind of legacy did I leave? Was I beautiful inside and out? Did Jesus' light shine from within and radiate outward? Was I kind to everyone? Did I make a difference? Was I a good person, friend, wife, etc.?

I'm making a change. I want to be a better person and friend. I'm going to work on stepping out of my comfort zone to reach others with kindness and friendship. These past two tragedies have honestly made me sick to my stomach over the loss of one of my closest friendships. We're still alive, but our friendship isn't. How do I let go of my pride and put it all past me? I don't want another tragedy to be what brings us to each other...or to one of our funerals. I don't know how to start. I don't know how to make that first step toward initiating a relationship again. UGhhhh.

I have dinner in the crockpot...taco salad, yummmm.

An old friend of mine messaged me on facebook and told me that she missed me and wanted advice. I had to smile, because I know that the Lord is putting opportunity in my life to be that better person and friend that I want to be. So even though I had planned to clean this house spotless, I'm understanding that it can wait...sometimes life can't. I am meeting with my sweet friend in about an hour or so. I've missed her.

I had a dream the other day that I was pregnant...It seemed so real. Yesterday I went to my mom's house. We were sitting there and she said, "I sure hope you aren't pregnant"...I almost choked on my spit. I said, "Lord, I hope not either!" She said that sometimes when a mother's daughter is pregnant, they can have symptoms of morning sickness (which is what is happening to my mom the past few days)..I think she said that happened with her mom..Oh geeze...I don't know what I'd do if I found out I was pregnant. #1, I'm not ready for that kind of responsibility. #2, I'm selfish and want more time with just Matt (and Ethel May). #3 I don't have enough sick days to cover having a child. #4, I haven't lost the weight that I plan to lose before having a baby. #5 Mama just bought a new car, so she needs to work towards paying it off before becoming a full-time nanny. #6 I want to get my master's degree before children. #7 I want to get tenured..All are huge reasons to not have a child right now. This may be too much information, but it's MY blog and MY thoughts...so, read them if you dare! ;) Anyway, 2 weeks till my period should be here....... keep your fingers crossed that it comes..

Pictures of Whitney and Stephanie below...Rest in peace girls.

Whitney Davidson

Stephanie Parmer

Memorial Day weekend is here; this means I get an extra day with my hubby. Jonathan (brother) and Nicole (brother's girlfriend) came over last night. I really enjoy having company. We cooked together, baked a cake, watched Valentine's Day. I really like it, but I don't think the boys liked it too much.

I sang a solo at church this morning. I sang the song "Unredeemed" by Selah. I love Selah's newest album "You Deliver Me"..awesome songs.

Yesterday morning, Matt and I slept in. We woke and he asked if I wanted to go swimming at his parents'. They got one of those above ground pools from Wal-Mart. It's really nice. Anyway, he was like a kid. I couldn't get ready quick enough for him. We went and swam with his sister and mom. After that we went and ate at "Deda's" on Summerville Road. We decided to go there because Matt's cousin and cousin's girlfriend cook/waitress there. Holy moly, that food was SO good. Everything is homemade. They give you a free sample of brunswick stew while you're waiting on your food. Brunswick stew isn't my favorite, but Deda's was amazing! We may be starting a band: Matt, Jonathan, myself, and possibly another friend. We talked about playing at Deda's with the owners and they were very excited. I'm not sure how this is going to play 0ut, but the best we can do is practice and see what happens :)

Matt came home the other day and stated that he changed his mind about building a work shed in the back yard; instead, he wanted to use the money (from tax refund) to use towards his college. I'm excited for him. He plans to start back in the fall at Troy. I need to go back also, but I don't have the motivation. I'm thinking about starting in the fall or spring, but we'll see what happens.

They are cleaning the carpets at the school next week. After they are cleaned, I will be up there and busy! I can't wait! My theme this year is underwater. I have bought some really cute items for the classroom. I have also been ebaying. I have won quite a few auctions on books. One night, I won about 5 auctions. Total, I spent $189.00 and got 214 books. If you do the math, that's about 88cents per book...not too shabby! ;) Since then, I've won about 4 other auctions. I'm very excited about next year. I'm also glad to have all summer to think/plan. Last year I was hired 3 weeks before school started, so it was a little stressful and I didn't have a lot of time to do any fluff...I had to get straight to business.

I need to take Ethel to the groomers, vet for shots, and also to the vet to get fixed. She's such a sweet dog. We are so blessed that we ended up with her. She has the cutest, funniest personality. For the past two weeks I have been tucking her in at bed time. She sleeps in a crate, similar to a play pen and in there is her bed. At night I tell her it's bed time, she walks to her pen and I let her in, she gets right in her bed and I get her little covers and cover her up. She's too cute. I came in there this morning and the covers were still on her. It's sad/funny when your brother and brother's gf call and ask if they can come over to see Ethel :) What can I say? She's loved by all :)

I'm going to see Beth Moore in December!

Wow, this house needs to be cleaned. I've been SOOOO lazy since school has ended. I've also been feeling "yucky". I feel tired, bloated, and sometimes nauseous. I think it may be my diet and lack of exercise. I must must must be better about walking on the treadmill everyday. This weekend hasn't been any better. I must get some pep in my step and get busy! I think my mattress is getting slack. Every morning I wake up with bad back pain. I'm not sure what I should do. The next mattress we get will be either latex or memory foam. With my back, I need the best. I can do cheap with a lot of things, but a mattress is not one of them. I'm not sure that we can afford one right now, so I'll have to figure out something to relieve the pain when I wake up in the meantime. My license is expired and has been since April 15th...another thing that needs immediate attention.

My parents recently celebrated 24 years of marriage. That's exciting :) They went to Atlanta, saw the Princess Diana exhibit, went to Stone Mountain, and would have gone to 6flags if it weren't for the rain. I didn't know that my dad had never been to Stone Mountain. I'm glad they were able to get away for the weekend and enjoy themselves; they deserved it.

We started our walkway project over a month ago and it's STILL not finished. As soon as it is, pictures will be posted.

Well, I'm going to try to talk my husband into watching a netflix movie off the xbox...we'll see how that goes ;) We took a LONG nap today after church, so there's no telling how late we'll be up. I can't just take a 2 hour nap..when I nap, I slumber!

What is it about playing fetch with dogs? Ethel and I are playing fetch and I swear if I threw her ball over and over, she'd fetch it for me all day long :)

Happy Memorial Day weekend!

Letting go and giving it to God

Summer break is here! I thought I would be in heaven, but in all actuality...I'm bored. There are plenty of things that I NEED to do, I just don't WANT to do any of it. I sleep in until around 8:30 or 9:00. The good thing about summer break is that I get to think about what I want to do next year to improve. The bad thing about summer break is that I get more time to think about things in my life I wish were different. I'm really missing some special friends in my life right now. Friendships I never thought would dissolve seem to have disappeared. I have a wonderful life, I do. I love my husband more than the day before. I still can't believe we are homeowners and have our precious Ethel May. But it's something about us women who need our girl friends. I don't know how to fix that void in my life. You'd think all the other happiness would just wash that ache away, but sadly to say, it doesn't. I think to myself, what have I done wrong? Is it me? Am I not trying hard enough? Have I changed? I don't know what to do. I sometimes think that new friends will help...well, I've made a couple new, good friends, but there is still that empty spot. When does it go away? How do I let it go? When did forever not become forever?
Side note: I had planned to blog about what I've been doing this summer and what I plan to do, and as you can see, what is truly bothering me comes out...I guess that's probably a good thing. Atleast it's a way to get some of my feelings out of my head.
Anyway, that's the biggest downfall of summer break and no job...too much time to think.

A girl I cheered with for years passed away suddenly in a car accident last Sunday. Her name was Whitney Davidson...that too has shaken me up in many different ways. She was such a bright soul; full of life. It makes you quickly realize how short life is...which brings me back to my emptiness with a special friend. It's been months since we've really spent time together like close friends do. I don't know what I'd do if something happened to her. The scary thing is that we have no control over that and we have no idea when it will happen. When it's our time...it's our time. I've cried and sulked over it and know that I must give it to God. He knows my heart, my pain, and my insecurities. Only he knows how to give me the peace that I need.

Lord Jesus, I pray that you take this hurt away from my heart. Please give me the strength that I need. Please wrap your sweet arms around me during this difficult time in my life and send me your peace that only you can. Right now I surrender to you my worries, insecurities, jealousy and my what-ifs. You are the gentle healer and I pray that you heal my heart from this ache and help me to move forward. Thank you for loving me. Amen

Let Go
Lindsay McCaul

I want to let go
I’m weary and bound
I’m giving it up
I’m laying it down
Take it away
Out of my hands
Out of my reach
Safe in Your plans

Cause I need to know
That You can hear me
Fill me with Your peace
And cover me gently
Like only You can

So take me, hold me
Break me and mold me
Take me, hold me
Break me and mold me
I want to let go

Cradle my hands
Knuckles so white
Open them up
And say its alright
Show me a plan
Call it Your own
Make it a journey
leading me home

Cause I need to know
That You can hear me
Fill me with Your peace
And cover me gently
Like only You can

So take me, hold me
Break me and mold me
Take me, hold me
Break me and mold me
I want to let go

End of first year

Well, I'm not doing so well with the whole blog thing...I'm going to blame it on the end of the year! ;)
Speaking of end of the year, we only have 2 days left of school!!! I cried Sunday thinking about it all, but this week I've kept it together pretty well.
Exciting news: I'm team teaching again with Mrs. McSwain AND I'm getting my own classroom!!! I will have about 20 kids and we'll swap during the day. For example, I'll teach reading and then my students will go to her for math and hers will come to me for reading, etc. I have decided that my classroom theme will be "underwater". I have ordered and bought so many cute things. I can't wait to get in there and get busy! I also went on ebay and won a few auctions. I ended up winning about 5. I payed $189.00 and got 214 books. If you divide it equally, each book cost 88cents. That's awesome! Another 1st year teacher gave me the idea to email parents and ask for book donations, since many of them are finished having children. I have had about 20 books come in. I hope that I can build a decent library in my new room. I have enjoyed being with Mrs. McSwain, but there's also something about having your own space and your own things. I'm so grateful for this experience and for my principal's leadership and wisdom. Today we had our class party. I knew we'd be stressed out with different end of the year things, so I asked 2 of my parents to head up the food, cake, and such. Well, they did a wonderful job! We had a chick-fil-a tray, fruit tray, veggie tray, snacks, drinks, and a delicious cake. We made personal classroom awards and another parent made a slide show for us. We are so blessed to have the parents we have! My parents/kids gave me some of the sweetest gifts. One of my parents had a book made of all the pictures from this year. It's absolutely wonderful and I am so thankful that she did that for me. I pray for many more wonderful years of teaching.

What will I do this summer? ....Well, I'll be cleaning and organizing our house, and will be up at the school any chance that I get.

I plan to start my Master's degree in the fall.

Matt and Ethel May are doing well. Matt is still working on our walkway, and as soon as it is finished, I will post before and after pictures :)
We also plan to build a storage shed and re-paint the house a different color.

It's Saturday...and I've been up since 6 AM. UHHHH. Why can't it be this easy to get up at 6 when I'm supposed to?? Anyway, my biopsy came back fine. Sadly, a sweet friend recently found out that her 11 month old baby girl has leukemia. How awful..My heart aches for the family, and I pray that God works a miracle in baby Tynsley's life.

Other news...Mama will be getting her new car today! She's getting a dark gray, Toyota Avalon 2011. Woohooo! I'm guessing this is her birthday present to herself...just 2 days early :)

I am taking pictures at Lakewood's "Miss Pretty in Pink" pageant today. I'm a little nervous, but I wanted to help in some way. Hopefully the pictures will come out nicely.

I woke up to the rain this morning, and it's the only sound I'm listening to at the moment...it can be so peaceful.

I can't believe I haven't shared this bit of information....I've been off of Diet Coke for 6 days now!...I really want to give it up and stick to water. I also really want to lose weight, but it's just hard to get into that mindset. It seems like everytime I turn around, we are going out for dinner...Dessert tonight? Sure, why not??...NO, I have to stop!

My back is feeling better, and if it weren't from my awful headache yesterday from not having a diet coke, Matt and I would have played...oh well, maybe tomorrow...if it's not raining.

Matt got on the baby kick again last night...I'm just not ready, and I'm not sure when I'll ever be ready. When I was little, I always imagined having kids...but now...not so much. There are so many worries and thoughts that go through my head. Not to mention the fact that I hardly see my husband as it is. Can't you imagine it now? We have a kid when I really wasn't ready..Matt works crazy hours and we hardly see him, so guess who takes care of the baby and house??...You guessed it...ME!....yep, not happening.

We have exactly 4 months left of school. I am excited, yes. Also, it is bittersweet. This marks the end of my first year teaching. I could not have asked for a more perfect class. Yes, we had behavior issues...let me stop..we had all issues possible, but I still feel like my class was what I needed. They have grown SO much. I can't believe it's winding down. God has blessed me far beyond my expectations, but then again, He always does. I am so thankful for all of the blessings given to me. I couldn't have asked to be apart of a better team of teachers. My fellow first grade teachers have all been a blessing to me.

There's Mobar, who always came walking down the hall before school started, and RIGHT after I got hired, letting me know that if I needed ANYTHING, to let her know. She surprised me after I got married with an S clipboard...just because..so sweet. She will be leaving after this year due to military, and we are going to really miss her.

There's Miller, who is a team teacher with Downey. She was so kind to me from day 1. She cracks me up all the time. I remember when she hurt her knee and had to have surgery this year. I went to visit her and it meant so much to her..which really meant a lot to me. She has overcome a lot this year and has done an outstanding job team teaching.

There's Riepe..and I kid you not, this woman smiles all the time. She is so calm, poised, and relaxed. Even when she's angry, it's hard to believe! She is a very driven woman who is an army wife and mom to 2 children. Not to mention, she's going to school and getting ready for her husband to be relocated. I don't know how she does it. She's like the superwoman teacher of first grade.

There's Kehoe...She doesn't have a mean bone in her body. She is so genuine...all the time. Everytime she walks by, she will make sure she tells us, and every other teacher hello. She truly cares about all of us and listens to all of our random life stories. Sometimes I go in her classroom just to get away. She's the easiest person to talk to. She's a very family-driven woman who would do anything for her boys.

There's Schofield...I felt like I knew her from the moment I met her. She took me in and was an immediate friend. She's been a close friend, especially before and during the transition of my team teacher coming in. She was always sympathetic and willing to give me her advice. I've enjoyed becoming closer to her through teaching and being in the same Sunday School class.

There's Downey...Downey was a college friend. Never did we imagine that we would end up at the same school. Let me tell you, when I cried (which was a lot during those first 2 months of school), she literally cried with me...I kid you not. I don't think I've ever had a friend to show such care, concern, and love as she did with her very own tears. She prayed with me, encouraged me, and lifted me numerous times when my spirits were down. She is such a blessing. I'm not sure what August, September, and October would have been like without her.

There's Courson...wow. She listened to me, let me cry, and voice my concern during those first few months. I'll never forget the day she came in, hugged me, and just let me cry. She was a rock. She watched after me and truly cared. When I look back at my first year, and even now, when I think about those first months, I think of her and how close she was. She didn't have to say much..just her presence alone was so calming. I look after her class whenever she has morning meetings or emergencies that come up. She always thanks me and has made comments of repaying the favor..what she doesn't know, is that I feel forever grateful to her for what she did for me that I enjoy being able to give back to her in small amounts whenever I can.

There's McSwain, aka Mama Bear, aka Madea (who loves Jesus) haha..also known as my team teacher. For the both of us, it was nerve wracking. We didn't know each other, she was having knee replacement surgery, and would be out for atleast 3 months. I can imagine that it was difficult for her. Knowing that someone else was coming into my room, and having to have the mindset that that person was my TEAM member. Knowing that person would be in charge for 3 months while I'm at home recovering. I think it was extremely difficult on both of us. Like I said above...I cried a LOT those first 3 months of school. I was so nervous for her return. I was terrified that it wouldn't work, and at the same time, I WANTED it to work. Mrs. Eller hired me with the faith that I was the perfect match for her and vice versa. I remember the first day of her return. I walked in to the classroom, Mrs. McSwain came to me with her arms outstretched, hugged me, and immediately began praying. She prayed that the nerves in both us of be ceased. From that prayer on, a bond began to form. We may not always see eye to eye or do things the same, but we are bonded together. She is like a mother to me. She sees me more than anyone else does! She looks after me. If you mess with me, you mess with her. Needless to say, Mrs. Eller was right about her decision. We joke all the time (Mrs. McSwain and myself). I tell her that no one else could have teamed with her and made it, but me...she totally agrees :) She's a blessing. I'm thankful to the Lord for what he has done in this situation. God is so good.

Well, I have really rambled this morning! I probably have all kinds of typos and errors, but I'm posting anyways! Looking forward to enjoying the weekend!

Polly Deen

Now that Matt is off of second shift, I decided it was time to get back into the kitchen. Welllllll, I have been wanting to try one of Paula Deen's pork chop recipes. You need pork chops, cayenne (red pepper), bell pepper, onions, chicken broth, worcestershire sauce, salt/pepper, garlic, and all purpose flour. I'm going to copy and paste the recipe instead of trying to remember it all ;) Here goes the recipe:

Ingredients:
4 center-cut pork chops, 1-inch thick Salt and freshly ground black pepper Ground cayenne pepper 2 tablespoons butter 1/4 cup all-purpose flour, spread on a plate 2 medium green bell peppers, stemmed, cored, and membranes removed, cut into strips 2 yellow onions, trimmed, cut lengthwise 3 cloves garlic, minced 2 cups chicken broth 2 to 3 dashes Worcestershire sauce
Directions
Trim the excess fat from the chops and season well with salt, pepper, and cayenne. Melt the butter in a skillet over medium heat. Lightly roll the chops in flour, shake off the excess, and slip them into the pan. Brown well, about 3 minutes per side, and remove them to a plate.
Add the bell peppers and onions, to the skillet, and saute until softened, about 3 minutes. Stir in the garlic and cook until fragrant, about half a minute longer. Push the vegetables to the side of the skillet. Add chops to pan and place vegetables on top of pork chops. Pour in the broth and sprinkle with Worcestershire sauce. Cover pan with foil and allow to simmer for 45 minutes or until chops are tender.
Recipe courtesy Damon Fowler
Servings: 4 servingsPrep Time: 15 minCook Time: 55 minDifficulty: Easy
Show: Paula's Best Dishes

Let me tell you...I have never had pork chops as tender as these...They were SOOO good! I've been on the Paula Deen kick, you know..just trying different recipes here and there. Today, Mama told me that my new name is "Polly Deen"..haha...I didn't expect it to take long to cook, but it did take a while. Good thing Matt didn't get off until late last night.

We started really getting into tennis last week. We played Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. Saturday and Sunday went well. On Monday, Matt got off a little late, so we didn't get to the courts till around 8:35. Well, at Idle Hour's tennis courts, the lights cutt off at exactly 8:45 and it's impossible to get them back on. We decided to try the other courts at Cliff Farrar...but, they closed at nine. Our last effort was lakebottom..They were open. We played until 11:15. We had a great time and the more I played, the better I got. When we came home I noticed that my back was hurting a little. (Side story: For those of you who do not know, I slipped two discs in my back during my time of cheerleading in highschool. My doctor told me that I needed surgery soon because I was beginning to get nerve damage. I had surgery August 13, 2003 at the age of 16. Since surgery, I have had ups and downs. I take one day at a time and try to keep my limits in mind. Sometimes I have flair ups and a few years ago I tried cortisone shots. For the most part, it has been in check. My doctor has made me aware that I will eventually need another surgery, but that I should wait as long as possible.) The next morning after playing tennis, I could barely walk. It wasn't like an ache or throbbing pain, it was excruciating. It was the kind of pain that made you grunt and cry out in pain. I felt as if the nerve was being twisted in all directions...it was awful. I just knew that I had really hurt it. School was difficult; whenever I got up from a chair, something would catch in my back and pain would shoot down my leg and leave me breathless. 2 days later and I am feeling MUCH better, thank the Lord. I'm not going to give tennis up, but I will be more mindful next time.

In the life of Mrs. Sawyer
Monday, April 19, 2010

Well...today wasn't too bad..You know, after coming back to school since Spring Break. The kids were well behaved and many of them came back with teeth missing. (random fact:Missing teeth is one of my favorite things about teaching 1st grade...they're so darn cute! )
I came home fairly early and did some more laundry/cleaning. Matt and I are eating at Mama and Daddy's tonight..T-bones, yum! After that we're going to play tennis again..3rd night in a row. I really enjoy playing. Last night I got frustrated with Matt because every single time I would make a mistake, he would try to correct me. Don't get me wrong, I know he was trying to help, but he makes as many mistakes, if not more than me. Sheeesh!
Something wonderful came in the mail today...TAX REFUND! I'm a little nervous to have so much money, but I know that we'll be smart as to how we use it.
Speaking of money->I was looking at our bank account the other day, and when we signed up to get a joint banking account, we decided to do "Ways 2 Save". Let me tell you, it's the neatest thing. Every time you swipe your card or pay a bill online, it puts $1.00 into the "Ways 2 Save" in our bank account. We just got on joint banking a month ago and already have $100.00 in savings just because of that. Neat, huh?
I should go now so that I can get ready to leave, have dinner, and play tennis. Tomorrow is career day at school tomorrow, which =jeans and a LES t-shirt :)
24 more days of school till SUMMER! :P

Good news, Daddy's cancer is not melanoma, it is carcinoma.

Yesterday Matt and I bought some tennis rackets and balls and played tennis with Jonathan and Nicole(Jonathan's girl friend). We had a fun time. I didn't do so well and I realized just how out of shape I am! Dang! I've been feeling down about my weight lately...it's time to quit feeling sorry for myself and do something about it. SOooo, I'll be joining the Y soon..stay tuned! ;)

Today is my last day of "break". Tomorrow I go back to school. We only have 5 weeks until summer break and this last month of school will go by fast, I think. We have wet fest, 2 more field trips, and fun projects coming up. We (Matt and I) went to dinner with Hillary and Erin last night to celebrate my birthday. We had a good time :) After that, we went to my parents' house and watched some home videos. Many of them were embarassing; especially during the period of my weirdnes. I think all children reach that point where their hair is ridiculous, crooked teeth, and in my case, thick glasses. Needless to say, we didn't get home until AFTER midnight. Mama and I had praise team this morning, which meant that we had to be at church at 8:40. The good thing about having praise team means that we'll be on time, or early, for Sunday School. Speaking of Sunday School, Matt and I have joined a new class. I think for the first time since I've been in youth, I truly feel like I belong and feel that I am growing in my walk. Also, the class is enjoyable and I feel like I learn something new each Sunday. Jared (our leader/youth pastor) really helps us dig deep into God's word.

After church, we ate at Cracker Barrel with Mama and Jonathan. After that, we came home. I was really tired, but could think of a thousand other things that I needed/wanted to do before going back to school tomorrow. So far I have washed, dried, and folded about 3 loads. I also read a few chapters in my current book "My Sister's Keeper". Matt is taking a nap and I think I'll cook dinner to surprise him when he wakes.

Tomorrow Matt goes back to better work hours...thank God! He'll be working from 10-7. Now we can actually cook and eat dinner together AND go to bed together. I've missed coming home to him each day.

Daddy

I decided to take a break from cleaning and blog.

I had a spot come up on my skin about a year ago and decided to make an appointment a month ago. I didn't know that skin cancer ran in the family until a few weeks ago. Daddy got into a car accident, went to the doctor, and the doctor noticed a mole which Daddy said bled sometimes. Come to find out, my dad's uncle died from skin cancer, and my Daddy's dad(who died before I was born) had skin cancer. I went in at 11:30 today and the doctor removed that spot to send for a biopsy. A few hours later, my mom calls to tell me that my dad's spot was cancer, afterall. I feel a little shaken up, but also know that God is in control. I'll get results about mine in about 5 days. I pray that Daddy's is nothing serious and hope that if you're reading, you'll take a moment to pray as well.

Tonight we're supposed to celebrate my birthday (which was yesterday) with some precious friends of ours, Jamie and Chris Milner. Chris and Jamie have been through so much in the past year. Chris had his colon removed about a month or two ago and he'll be preparing for another soon. During our beach trip, I read the book "The Lovely Bones". It was pretty good, so I think I may try to watch the movie of it tonight.

Today's weather is absolutely beautiful. I sat on my front porch, rocking, and watching the beautiful birds. Ethel is sleeping sideways beside me and she looks so funny!

I have Christian radio on XM playing loudly as I clean, relax, and just enjoy the day.

catch up!

I wish I would have started this thing right after we got married..but, too late now :) I'll do the best recap I can of the past 6 months.

October: Matt and I got married and moved into our house. If you asked us 8 months ago, we would probably tell you that we would be living in an apartment. God had other plans for us. I got a teaching job, Matt got a raise, and a month later, we closed on our house. We closed on the house on September 15, 2009. I love our home. When we first saw it, I didn't care much for it, but now I love everything about it. I love sitting on the porch and looking into the trees that give us so much privacy. I love that we have a corner lot. I also like the fact that this house/propery gives us a lot of room to improve and add to.

Also in October, my team teacher came back from knee surgery. I work at Lakewood Elementary School in Phenix City. We have a classroom of 30 precious children and 2 teachers. My team teacher was gone for the first 3 months of school. I was honestly terrified for her return. She was made to be this scary person. Again, God works in mysterious ways. My team teacher has become one of my closest friends. I love my job.

November: Matt and I went on our honeymoon that was given to us by one of my closest friend's mom. We went to Gatlinburg during my Thanksgiving break. We had a blast, to say the least. We went zip lining on the US's largest zip line. We splurged one night and stayed in a three story cabin. We were like children running to all the levels of the cabin. One floor had an air hockey table, one floor had a pool table, and the balcony had a hot tub on the porch. We also had a man and woman come and give us a couple's massage in the cabin. It was very romantic and memorable. We were supposed to spend Thanksgiving there, but instead, we decided to come home a day early and surprise our family. It was a surprise, indeed. :) It was the best Thanksgiving I've had yet.
In November, I began to get puppy fever. No, not BABY fever...puppy fever :) November began the search for my furry baby.

December: Ethel May is adopted. After much searching, I found my baby. She is a beautiful shih tzu with SO much personality. Many people say she was meant for me because she is so forgetful and ADDish. I love her so much. She constantly keeps us entertained. During this month, we also found out that Matt has a liver disease. Talk about scary. We had lots of tests run to find out exactly what was going on. Luckily we caught it early, so we will have to take extra special care and attention on what he eats and does. December was very memorable because we bought a real Christmas tree. It was SO much fun. After all these years, and finally, we have a home of our own and we were able to start our own traditions. Our tree was beautiful and I was so proud of it. It thrilled me to wrap gifts and put them under the tree. With my mom's help, I got Matt an xbox360, beetles rock band, rock band 2, and dj hero. Needless to say, he was a very surprised man on Christmas morning. I woke up early Christmas morning and cooked a delicious breakfast that consisted of french toast, cheese grits, eggs, and bacon. Our first Christmas was very special. We were married, in our own home, and with our precious new puppy Ethel May.

January: Matt became very ill. We celebrated Hillary's birthday, then came home to watch the ball drop. Well...everything else dropped from there, too. Matt started puking and running a fever of 103. Every hour, on the hour, he got hiccups. It became so bad that he finally asked me to take him to the ER. We went to the ER where they told him he had the flu. That next week was rough. I was trying to take care of Matt, the puppy, and a house with everything that comes along with it. After he got over the flu, he came down with bronchitis. He had to go to the Acute care place and have a breathing treatment, inhaler, and steroids. He completely lost his voice for weeks and I started to think that it would never come back. Thankfully, it did.

February: We celebrated 9 years of being together.

March: Matt began 2nd shift. It was awful. I came home to Ethel and he came home around 1:30 in the morning. Nothing is worse than getting married and then not seeing your husband. In a way, I guess you could say depression set in. It was very difficult not seeing him or really being able to talk to him. I didn't even cook dinner anymore...there was no point. March was a tough month for me in the area of friendship. Some of my closest friendships seemed to cease after marriage. It's something I'm still dealing with on a daily basis, but in ways it gets better, and I have developed stronger relationships with friends. Some of my friends have been a rock during this month of my life. Hillary Palmer really took time out for me. If I was busy, she was patient, but never gave up on me. I am very thankful for her and her dedication to our friendship. Another friendship that has grown deeper roots is my friendship with Jamie Milner. We became best friends in 6th grade. Around highschool/college we sort of did our own thing. For the past year we have been working on regaining the friendship we once had. She has really been a rock in my life since marrying Matt.

If I could think of a word that means more than perfect and wonderful, I would use it to describe my parents. Gosh, I am so blessed to have them. They have helped Matt and I in every way possible since getting married. If we have any need, large or small, they meet it. I'll never forget driving off from the reception. I was so happy to finally be married to Matt, but I was sad at the same time. I knew that life would never be the same for me and my parents. I would never go back to living with them and depending on them. I cried when I hugged my Mama. It was one of the hardest things I did. Since getting married, our relationship has grown in different ways. She was already my best friend, but each day I feel that we grow closer and closer...in a different way.

We got a lot of money on our tax return..You know, first time home buyer, being married, etc. I decided that the one thing I would buy for myself would be rocking chairs. Well, my thoughtful mother decided that that would be the perfect present for my birthday. One Saturday, Mama, Matt, and I went to Lowe's to get them. They came in the box (not put together). Since my dad can pretty much do everything, I gave him the task of putting them together. I knew he would make sure they were perfect. On the way home from school one day, I passed my parents' house and saw my mom rocking in her chairs. She called me and I told her that it must be nice to have rocking chairs and that I wished Daddy would put mine together. I went home to take a nap. About an hour later my doorbell rings. I open the door to find my parents rocking in my rocking chairs...they're wonderful (my parents and the rocking chairs) :)

April 12-16: SPRING BREAK!! WOOHOOOO...finally! My mom planned the perfect beach trip for just the two of us. We left on Monday, April 12th. We stayed at a beautiful condo called Pinnacle Port. From the living room, we were overlooking the bay. From the dining room, we were overlooking the beach. There was hardly no one there. The weather was absolutely perfect and I only got burnt on the left side of my body.

April 15th (today) is my birthday. I am 23 years old...or young... :) We came home from the beach today. I came home to find a card that said "Pretty Thang". Naturally, it was from my husband. It was a very sweet birthday card. It warms my heart to get a card that says wife on it :) One of those simple pleasures of life I guess...Anyways, I thought that I had already had my birthday gifts from him, but I guess he decided that I needed something else. He got me one of those ipod docks that are installed under the cabinets in my kitchen. It is 12:41 A.M. and he is currently putting it in :) We ate at Sushico (however you spell it). I really enjoyed it. Matt was able to get off of work to join us. It was Mama, Daddy, Jonathan, Nicole, Matt, and me.

OH, we've also really gotten into yard work and stuff. I came home to two beautful potted plants that can be hung on the front porch from my favorite aunt in the world, Aunt Sharon. She's literally an angel God put on Earth. I'm glad to call her mine :) We talked on the phone for a long time tonight. I love her.

Today I'm feeling very blessed for the people in my life. I asked Matt the other day if any of this seemed real. I was sitting in the rocking chair watching Matt cut down some trees and it hit me all over again...this is my life...is it? Am I dreaming? Is that really my husband? Is this really our home and all of our belongings?? Wow...I guess it is. Still, it seems like a dream. I wonder when it will all set in.

Well.. I'm tired and Matt is home from work. I plan to do better on journaling our journey through this crazy thing we call life.